Fuck it

a simple, controversial poem (boring still)

Photo by Possessed Photography on Unsplash

Fuck it, if I don’t look right to you,

Fuck it, if they won’t take me in as a worker,

Fuck it, if they choose not to like me,

Fuck it, if they don’t need me,

Fuck it, if everything I want takes time

Fuck it, if I feel this way;

Fuck it, if nobody wants to come close to me and be with me,

Fuck it, if nobody takes me seriously;

Fuck it, if they don’t believe in me, fuck it if I don’t have the energy to believe in me too;

Fuck it, if I sometimes can’t have any helpful thoughts,

Fuck it, if I can’t have what I want in this life,

Fuck it, if I happen to be average,

Fuck it, if I can’t be who I want to be,

Fuck it, if I can’t do things right,

Fuck it, if I don’t have any money,

Fuck it, if no one appreciates my expertise and skills;

Fuck it, if I play bad piano;

Fuck it, if I’m sick in the head,

Fuck it, if I never learn from my mistakes,

Fuck it, if I make a fool of myself,

Fuck it, if I should stay here, this way, forever;

Fuck it, if people talk; if people ignore me,

Fuck it, if my gums are receding too early,

Fuck it, if I’m a forgetful one;

Fuck it, if I never travel anywhere else ever again,

Fuck it, if I happen to be the most despicable and undeserving person on earth,

Fuck it, if I must eventually suffer from the separation from everything and everyone I love,

Fuck it, if I can’t understand myself completely,

Fuck it, if I can’t help myself completely.

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ISJ

All things life, spirituality, healing, psychotherapy, trauma-related, & mindfulness. Occasionally food & poetry.